‘Jaguar Girl’ for BBC 100
‘Jaguar Girl’ for BBC 100 - Pascale Petit
‘Jaguar Girl’ for BBC 100
Jaguar Girl
Her gaze is tipped with curare,
her face farouche
from the kids’ asylum
where ice baths
failed to tame her.
Her claws are crescent moons
sharpened on lightning.
She swims through the star-splinters
of a mirror
and emerges snarling –
my were-mama.
She’s a rainforest
in a straitjacket.
Where she leaps
the sky comes alive, unleashed
from its bottle.
My mother, trying to conceal
her lithium tremor
as she carries the Amazon
on her back,
her rosettes of rivers
and oxbow lakes,
her clouds of chattering caciques,
her flocks of archangels.
Her own tongue is a hive
that stings
yet pollinates
all the orchids of the forest.
Her ears prick
to the growl of roots
under concrete,
the purr of plants growing.
My Animal Mother,
shaman’s bitch,
a highway bulldozed
through her brain,
shapeshifter
into a trembling rabbit
whenever I’m scared of her.
She who has had electric eels
pressed to her scalp
can vanish into backwoods
where no one can reach her.
I’m trying to sew her
back together,
to make a patchwork
of gold dust
and ghost vines,
a sylvan pelt
of torn-down trees,
the shadow dance
of leaves on litter.
I’m trying to conjure her
in her zoo cage
as the doctor comes
to dart her.
from Mama Amazonica (Bloodaxe, 2017), copyright © Pascale Petit 2017, used by permission of the author and the publisher. Recording used by permission of BBC.