To My Father / To My Future Son

                   The stars are not hereditary 

                                         Emily Dickinson 

 

There was a door & then a door 

                          surrounded by a forest. 

 

                                              Look, my eyes are not 

           your eyes. 

 

                     You move through me like rain 

                                                                               heard 

                                   from another country. 

Yes, you have a country. 

                                             Someday, they will find it 

                while searching for lost ships . . .  

 

Once, I fell in love 

                          during a slow-motion car crash. 

 

We looked so peaceful, the cigarette floating from his lips 

                                           as our heads whiplashed back 

               into the dream & all 

                                                        was forgiven. 

 

             Because what you heard, or will hear, is true: I wrote 

a better hour onto the page 

 

                            & watched the fire take it back. 

 

Something was always burning. 

                                     Do you understand? I closed my mouth 

but could still taste the ash 

                                      because my eyes were open. 

 

From men, I learned to praise the thickness of walls. 

                                                        From women, 

                          I learned to praise. 

 

                                    If you are given my body, put it down. 

If you are given anything 

                       be sure to leave 

                                                  no tracks in the snow. Know 

 

                      that I never chose 

which way the seasons turned. That it was always October 

                                                                         in my throat 

 

                       & you: every leaf 

                                                    refusing to rust. 

 

                       Quick. Can you see the red dark shifting? 

 

This means I am touching you. This means 

                                      you are not alone – even 

                    as you are not. 

                                           If you get there before me, if you think 

                                                                                     of nothing 

 

& my face appears rippling 

                       like a torn flag – turn back. 

 

Turn back & find the book I left 

                                      for us, filled 

                                                     with all the colors of the sky 

                    forgotten by gravediggers. 

                                                                  Use it. 

 

Use it to prove how the stars
                                                 were always what we knew
                   they were the exit wounds
                                                                    of every
                                    misfired word.

from Night Sky With Exit Wounds (Copper Canyon, 2016/Cape 2017), copyright © Ocean Vuong 2016, used by permission of the author and the publishers

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