Les Baillessats - Andrew Johnston
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Sixteen panes in the cottage window,
one for each month of your life,
starting with bluest sky, top left,
reading across and down into the trees
where things get more complicated,
a stream that goes on and on about
where it’s going and where it’s been.
Pils the dog is sleeping on the driveway,
Mimi is tending her kittens somewhere
or perhaps they’ve been killed already,
seeing as their father is Mimi’s brother Raaf,
a raven, gone wild, grass seeds in his fur,
who crept past me on the hillside at 6 a.m.
on his way to steal something from the house
as I sat among scrub oak and wild thyme
watching the sun colour Canigou.
There’s so much to tell you. You see
everything, but won’t remember it,
even though, each day, you remember the chickens
and take me by the hand and lead me there,
the rooster, with feathers of polished rust
and Lily, your favourite, shy and white.
Dogs, cats, chickens. Goats go past the gate
twice a day, led by Ursula, her cheeks
bright red from the weather. Thirty
or forty goats, with beards and fine horns,
bells whose clank carries over the slopes
when they’re coming down for evening milking.
You stood at the gate while they filed past
one morning at eight. you were so excited
your arms pumped as if you were beating
the great big drum of life.
In the afternoon, while you sleep,
the goats come up into the trees
on the other side of the stream ?
the buck with his long black beard
and devilish eyes, he’s the model of a devil,
goes up on his hind legs to chomp
whole bunches of bright green leaves.
The Cathars who lived here believed all flesh
the devil’s work, and that souls passed
from body to body until they received
the sacrament of Consolation,
what did they make of these butterflies,
the yellow-green, black-orange, orange, red.
drifting down, so many, all different,
as if somewhere in the wings, upstream,
a new soul hatched, each minute, with new wings.
Hard fields the Cathars worked
marked out with rows of stones:
they meant no harm. They’re gone. Butterflies
and damselflies: somewhere in your body,
after all, you will remember this,
lizards so small and still and quick,
warm gritty stones they loved
losing their heat little by little
as the sun moves across a sky
of medieval blue, and the stream
after all: some things that concern us
don’t concern us. One of the hens laid
a tiny egg, and Erin brought it to you,
miniature, perfect. Soon you will wake
in the present, which is full of consolation.
from Sol (Victoria University Press, 2007/ Arc Publications 2008), © Andrew Johnston 2007, used by permission of the author. Recording from the Aotearoa New Zealand Poetry Sound Archives 2004, supplied by the Braeburn Studios