Guy’s and St Thomas’s
Guy’s and St Thomas’s - Kayo Chingonyi
Guy’s and St Thomas’s
When I’m here in a particular
character of mind
any woman of a certain height –
hair plaited neat
to meet the working day –
becomes my mother
in that year of early mornings
she worked at GDRU
close to this stretch of the river
close to Hay’s Galleria;
the aquarium that is still here
though she is not
to walk with me as we scrutinize
tropical fish
laughing in the uncomplicated
manner that comes
of understanding. And after,
a bankside stroll
a cart-proprietor advertises wares;
varieties of ice cream.
It is 1999. My last summer as native
this side of the river
where the water brings pilgrims in search
of a cure for long hours,
bad coffee, friends
always catching up
and rarely giving conversation its due.
How can I set down
the passage of time? Who knew a face
becomes less and less distinct
the longer it no longer exists?
How to lift this mist
from my eyes, that I might see
this concrete and glass
for what it is and stop
writing my mother into it
that I might let her walk away
becoming smaller and smaller
until she disappears.
from A Blood Condition (Chatto & Windus, 2021), © Kayo Chingonyi 2021, used by permission of the author and the publisher.