Heart of litter
by Jade Cuttle
Heart of litter - Jade Cuttle
Heart of litter
A shard of glass wedges into my skin
like a last goodbye:
the words slice like tin can lids
but rust twice as slow
and though I’ve air-lifted each last
broken neck of bottle
still bleeding
and bubbling
its guts to the ground,
I cling on
like chewing gum
stuck to the cracked teeth
of this town.
It’s 5am.
The dawn shakes out the dew.
I shake out a slim black liner
and sweep up my excuses;
blackhole the butt ends
still busking their smoke
into the cracks
of the pavement;
the bus tickets
basking in the streetlight,
gulping at its glow
until black ink
blinks
to grey;
the crumpled caress
of a brown paper bag
still cradling the crumbs
that remain.
It’s 6am.
The rain pinches the pavement
and the last of my dreams.
I steal a glimpse at a puddle
cosying up to the bin,
kissing away the rust
that rims its tired lips
and remember
that I used to be like this.
It’s 7am.
The puddle yawns into the soil
and so I yawn too,
body from bone.
I see myself trapped
inside its glassy stare –
sifting through
lashes of leaves
I scratch the silt
and slugs
from the windowpane,
searching for something to cling onto
in this moon of water.
It’s 8am.
I quit.
The words snag in my throat
like carrier bags
caught on a branch
widowed by the wind
not knowing which way to turn.
I can’t quit.
I’d sooner tin my heart in brine
or the grime of this gutter
than wallow empty-handed
as the womb
of a crisp-packet wrapper
still sucking the salty cry
from its walls.
unpublished poem, © Jade Cuttle 2019, used by permission of the author.