Surge 3
by Jay Bernard
Surge 3 - Jay Bernard
Surge 3
When they lifted me my neck snapped
and my head landed cheek down
I saw the officer’s foot jump back
his hands shook as he wiped the soot
I noticed the rudded gold of his watch
how pink his nails gleamed through the gloves
the white-gold ring like sausage string
on a near translucent finger
He paused and seemed to see me watch
him searching for a gaze to meet
He darted out his hand and grabbed my
head and dropped it in a plastic bag
I glimpsed myself beside the bed
saw for a second my stiff black hands
no nails or thumb or life line left
no heart tattoo or amber palm
the room was black the sky was black
the smoke came through and breathed us in
the house we knew the friends we left
up they went in dust again
I heard they found that boy you liked
but couldn’t say if it was him
until they locked his mother’s door
with a key found winking in the ash
They put me on a table beside my photograph
a rubbish one that showed all my spots
They blew it up so it was just my face
But remember you were there to the right
and remember how that afternoon we
put our fists together and checked
who was dark and who was light
I was the darker one and wondered
why it was I was not like you
Why I hadn’t been born browner or white
When it did not seem that hard to do
extract from the early version of ‘Surge’ published in Beacon of Hope (New Beacon Books, 2016), copyright © Jay Bernard 2016, used by permission of the author and the George Padmore Institute