A Pang
A Pang - Lachlan Mackinnon
A Pang
i.m. Patrick Lowman
1940-2009
I’m sure you knew
but left it –
that I was shamefully completely
wrong about Jaan Kaplinski.
Postman shopkeeper
bits and bobs when I knew you,
your father beat you literate.
You skipped school,
worked on the barrows,
went for a soldier.
Men from your regiment
looked you up,
wry reliable friend.
Some came the day your wicker
basket was put
cold under soil among trees,
stars and the wind.
You’re always no longer
there when I go back –
a face on the pub wall
with wiry grey
swept hair
About Kaplinski, Pat –
forgive me.
from The Missing Months (Faber, 2022), © Lachlan MacKinnon 2022, used by permission of the author and publisher, Faber & Faber Ltd.